Where do birds go to die?

If I say pack your bags and leave,

Where do you go?

If I say learn to live, wild and free,

What do you do?

I know it's a little cliché but,

What can I say?

I wake up everyday, thinking,

Why do I bother?

I mean, dont we all wonder,

Why it should matter?

I can't help but ask, 

What is wrong?

I actually know why it hurts,

Would you beleive this?

I just want to know how to fix it,

Why won't anybody tell me?

I can't beleive, no mather how far I go

Somehow, I always end up next to you?

I should be like a caged bird who dreams of the wild

Yet, though I am free, I am in pain?

I've become one, with clipped wings damned to roam the grounds,

Dare I say such a thing?

A long time ago I wondered,

Where do birds go to die?

It's not like they drop out of the sky, mid-flight, unharmed.

Home! Too sick, tired or weak to fly away, who knew?...

But then ...

When you don't hurt,
When you don't feel,
How are you ?

When you don't know,
When you don't care,
How can you? 

When you don't dare,
When you don't bother,
How do you?

When you can't even,
When maybe, but then
Why you?
                        Missahdynn

Dawn

And then just like that the sun rises,

Bringing forth new days filled with surprises.

New skies spread as far as the eyes

Will allow us to see, passed the lies.

For some of us the night wich is left behind,

Goes away with monsters to wich we bind

The darkest regions of our mind.

For others it is not such a situation.

As the night fades, a sickening notion

Begins to take form. Fear is that emotion.

And then just like that it's the night's end.

Taking away the starry sky and 

All hopes of wishes on a shooting star and 

As of said moment, Dreams thus end.

                                   MissAhdynn

Silly me

I like that we can sit across each other,

I like that we don't need to talk ever. 

I like that we feel so easy next to one another, 

But then he laughs and my chest tingles. 

I don't have the means to explain,

The waves of emotion running through my body, 

I sense my blood flowing from my hands and toes,

To my stomach in a knot and my red face.

I want to smile uncontrollably,

I want to laugh unreasonably,

I want to giggle like a tiny little lady,

And i blush because i feel silly. 

I can't describe how light this makes me feel,

So excited, so peaceful, so ecstatic, and so releived 

I can't put to words this situation 

And this roller coaster of emotions 

I like that you can make me feel this way

I like that we don't have much to say

I like that we don't meet every day

But when we do, butterflies take me away

                                                  MissAhdynn

Midnight sweats

Tangled in the bedsheets, holding on to the covers
I'm getting thoughts, my body shivers.

Is it inappropriate for me to feel this way?
Why are my boundaries wobbling away?

I've got chills running down my spine,
And my nerves are hanging on a line.

I dont think i'll be able to last all night
If he doesn't leave my mind i won't be alright

I'm rolling around trying to fall asleep but my mind wont let me
My dreams will be filled with him even so wide awake he is hunting me

How can i long for such unhealthy behaviour?
Why am i so ready to give up all my pride and honor?

The air is filling up with my heavy breathing,
And the room temperature cant help with me needing,

To be held, kissed, touched, desired and slayed.
I'm here sweating of all these emotions laid.

In this bed, drenched in my midnight sweat,
Wet.

                                  MissAhdynn

J'ai rêvé...

Comme si j'embarquais en mer en quête de nouveaux rivages.
Comme si je prenais la route vers des lointains paysages.
J'ai rêvé qu'entre nous un arôme de passion se dégage.
J'ai rêvé que tes lèvres m'aient emmenée en voyages.

Comme une fleur fragile soumise à la bise du nord,
Comme une nature bougée par les douceurs du Sirocco,
J'ai rêvé que ton regard avait parcouru mon corps.
J'ai rêvé que ton souffle avait minouché ma peau.

Comme la vague et le sable s'embrassent enfin.
Comme le soleil se couche dans les bras de la mer.
J'ai rêvé que tu m'as chevauchée sans fin.
J'ai rêvé que tes mains douces ont pétri ma chair.

Comme si ce soir là pour nous, le temps s'était arrêté.
Comme la tendresse des caresses du vent dans les prés,
J'ai rêvé de nous, nus en spectacle, corps à corps, entrelacés.
J'ai rêvé mourir et renaitre quand tu m'as possédée.

                                                          MissAhdynn

The struggle of an empty page

I would write to you every day,
I would put down on paper,
All the random little things, i need to say.
My life would come to you in a letter.
All the stories in my world would
Find there ways to you if i could
Tell you how i feel about you,
How i'd wish to be with you.

I'd recount me missing the second to last
Step of the stairs going down from my place
Ending up laying on the floor, face
First as people simply walked past.
Or that time i came off the bus
And noticed i had popped buttons of my shirt.
Believe it or not, i was on my way home thus
How long of the day, do you think i had exposed my heart?

I would if i could tell you all these irrelevant tales
Of me and the buttered bread adventures
I say i would put it down to paper but it could be just emails.
Our 21st century does not care much for scriptures.
But i would tell you all my fancy little things,
And i would ask about your irrelevant silly things.
If i knew who you were
Or where you were

I would write to you every day,
If i had already met you.
I would have so much to say,
If i could talk to you.
But i don't know you just yet.
Here i am, with an empty page,
My words and my pen ready to engage
A lover whom i haven't met.

                              MissAhdynn

Kiss Me Goodnight

I need someone to check me out
Let me down,
Make me fly,
High and tall.
Break me down,
Make me cry,
Catch my fall.

I need someone to hold my hand
Have me blush,
Faint and drop.
Give me tingles,
And a fever rush.
Put me on top,
With my guts in tangles.

I need someone to pick me up
Turn me into,
The one who begs.
Play with me.
Climb onto,
Spread My legs,
And eat me.

I need someone to take me hard
Ride me strong,
Gagged and Bound,
In loving shackles.
Moan along,
Turn me around,
As my strength crackles.

I need someone to kiss me goodnight
As I rest here,
With a taint smile,
And a light bliss,
With no fear,
And heart so fragile,
Hold me and give me a kiss.

                         MissAhdynn

Manmi Laure

Je me souviens de toi.
Je me souviens de nous.
Je me souviens de ton sourire.
J'entends encore ton rire...
Parfois tu contais des histoires.
Parfois tu pleurais tes souffrances,
Que je comprenais souvent mal.
Mais tu étais si belle!!!
Coquette, comme toi seule.

La maladie te frappa
Et nos coeurs pleuraient ta perte de mémoire, nos souvenirs communs.
Impuissant face a ta souffrance,
Nous t'avons laissé partir heureuse vers Dieu.

Tu as été soeur, mère, cousine, nièce,
Mais pour moi tu seras toujours Manmi Laure,
Ma petite grand-mere de coeur.

 Tu me manques...
                                                              Ladymyou

Juste un peu

Mon monde s'écroule petit a petit;
Je contemple la vie,
Rien ne pourrait me réjouir en ces temps.
Des souvenirs vagabondent dans ma mémoire;
Je souhaite un retour au passé.
Certes, je ne regrette rien,
Pourtant, certaines choses pourraient etre mieux.
Je ressens l'effroie du futur,
Je suis dénudée,
Je suis sans vie.
Je m'efforce de sourir, je crie de l'intérieur.
Tout le monde réplique:"tout ira bien", "ca fait partie de la vie", "cela devait arriver un jour"
Il ne devait rien dutout;
Juste encore plus de temps.
Plus de temps pour aimer, pour rire, pour vivre.
Un peu de temps encore aurait suffit pour tout.
Je veux croire a cette paix intérieur,
Je voudrais un moment de bonheur.
Qui sait... Je les trouverai en Dieu.
                                                             Ladymyou